I’m so emotionally exhausted. I feel like I could cry endlessly for the next few years. We’ve had such a hard few years as a family that I just wish we could get a little bit to breathe.
2015, my cousin was in a car accident and died.
2016, my mother had her stroke and was in the hospital for a month straight.
2017, my grandmother had to have her leg amputated. A few days afterwards she tried to stand up from bed and busted her head open. My brother was also admitted into the hospital for four days due to an infection.
I just am at a loss right now for words. I feel like emotionally I’m so drained that I can’t even emit proper emotions anymore. And it’s frustrating because I react either very emotionless or way too emotional and I can’t seem to keep myself in check.
This isn’t a normal blog post. It’s just a current feeling update. I wish things could get slightly easier. But things have been so hard lately that I’m not even sure how to keep trying to push for things to get better..